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My Poetry and Commentary on Life

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  • it happens again this time to me

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    aging, anxiety, change, poetry

    “There are times all the time the same”

    —Robert Creeley

    for who is left to pick up

    the conversation from the night

    before in the park over chess

    or years perhaps decades ago

    that Sunday spring afternoon

    over a beer and a whisky shot


    when does the laughter stop

    and the slow shambling walk

    back to the children’s table begin

    where the great nephews seen 

    only at holidays fear the silent 

    creature I have left to live within


    what do I know of fear

    this low-intensity anxiety

    which even now gnaws at me

    when I have nothing to fear 

    except a long life with its slow 

    descent into a lonely trifle

    (February 11, 2024)

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  • Directions Home

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    acceptance, awareness, community, death, fate, poetry, sonnets, transition

    When lost it’s best

    to stop and ask

    where you are—


    but no one knows

    beyond our places,

    our beliefs.


    Even so, we arrive;

    our mouths filled

    with fresh-turned earth.


    Mostly people

    we know attend,

    chatting quietly.


    Then a few more leave,

    while others do not.

    (February 8, 2024)

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  • new vision

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    aging, attention, change, clarity, floating world, life, poetry, samsara, ways of knowing, zen

    between grandchildren’s fingers

    and the dogs’ happy tongues

    my glasses are often smudged

    leaving little difference

    in wearing them or lying

    forgotten on the bedside table

    (February 6, 2024)

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  • Self-Portrait at Sixty-Three

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    aging, change, identity formation, meditation, perspective, poetry, worn

    I am not a mirror,

    a reflection formed

    in images I walk within.

    I am lost in the projections

    along my surfaces, vague

    and inchoate like smoke.


    I am not a window

    where a stranger 

    in the street may watch

    the pedestrian drama

    of my life’s denouement.


    I am a sack-cloth bag

    stuffed with cliches.

    I slip my hand in

    to find tattered masks

    which fall to dust

    as I drape them solemnly

    across my skin.

    (February 2, 2024)

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  • Relativity

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    acceptance, aging, attention, contentment, life, meditation, perspective, poetry, retirement, samsara, solitude, time, ways of knowing

    Outside in a bare tree,

    the wind chime rings softly 

    in the cool northern breeze.

    The old mantle clock chimes

    the approximate hour

    slowing a tad each day

    if left to its own wiles.

    I forget what day it is

    and must remind myself

    in order to keep up—

    since friends and family

    grow concerned when I fall

    out of sync with their world.

    The new puppy runs wild

    across the back yard

    patrolling the fence line

    for oblivious squirrels

    while the older dog basks

    in the afternoon sun.

    (January 31, 2024)

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  • White Out

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    agency, anxiety, borders, despair, lament, language, liminal, metaphor, poetry, silence, sonnets, tension

    I live within walls,

    neither inside nor out.

    I place my hand as on skin,

    softly pushing in.

    The resistance is mine,

    pliant and divisive:

    less a protection

    than a prison.


    There is no key,

    nor knife to slice

    the callused flesh,

    the polished walls–

    only silence to absorb

    the incessant whispers.

    (January 29, 2024)

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  • grounded

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    acceptance, agency, aging, change, contentment, difference, gratitude, identity formation, optimism, poetry, retirement, transition

    bare branches lace the grey sky to the ground

    as the rain continues into the day

    again I wait in a doctor’s office

    an event more often than not these days

    but what can I say I’m no longer young

    outside people drive to work through the rain

    I still rise long before the sun rises

    as I did for the last thirty-four years

    I take naps now instead of commuting

    I like that I have nothing much to do

    that must be done on someone else’s time

    my day’s filled with dogs and poetry

    both of which provide a steady rhythm 

    more suited to the beating of my heart

    (January 26, 2024)

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  • After Mamie Died, Mom Called the Ambulance

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    alone, attention, change, death, fate, life, meditation, memory, poetry

    As we arrived,

    The blue and and red lights

    Flashed across the outside

    Of Mamie’s house

    Like color wheels

    On flocked Christmas trees.


    She lay unattended

    In the ambulance bay

    The back doors swinging wide

    As they gathered their gear.

    Cool fluorescent light leaked

    Into the warm autumn night.


    Next to a piece of toast,

    In her bright kitchen,

    A fried egg grew cold

    On a small porcelain plate.

    Nearby, the wall phone receiver

    Lay askew on the speckled tile floor.

    (January 23, 2024)

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  • The Difference From Desire

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    abstract, anxiety, chance, courage, desire, despair, difference, fate, fear, paradigms, poetry

    Do you see the hope, the longing

    that waits always unfulfilled

    like despair upon a bridge

    unwilling to stand balanced

    upon the rail, to watch the flow

    of the white river through the rocks;

    unwilling to decide

    which ecstasy to embrace:

    the ecstasy of hope—

    to fly unimpeded into the sky

    as the wax our father shaped

    into wings softens with the setting sun;

    or the ecstasy of fate—

    to accept the freedom the plunge offers

    in the froth and blood far below?

    (January 20, 2024)

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  • for want

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    aging, choice, desire, life, meaning, poetry, process, samsara, sonnets, time

    it’s when you believe

    you are someone

    that the mistake begins


    you are not the nail

    the crown fell later

    far from your loss


    what I wanted

    never mattered

    more than now


    and now is too late

    to be any more

    than a thin fume


    a last twirl of smoke

    after the ember’s gone

    (January 17, 2024)

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  • Cold Winter Day

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    aging, awareness, haiku, interrelationships, metaphor, poetry, syllabics, tanka, time

    Outside in the yard,

    spring’s green garden grows dormant;

    ice holds to the ground.


    Petals fall like snow.

    As I walk through the garden,

    the cold kills the rose.


    My son wants something:

    I can only be myself.

    Winter’s wind is cold.


    Ice covers the grass;

    Even inside, I am cold.

    All my friends have gone.


    The low grey clouds hang like shrouds;

    the cold grows into the night.

    (January 15, 2024)

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  • Crossing Over

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    attention, change, objectivism, poetry, zen

    On the concrete bridge

    crossing Gilleland creek

    near the playscape

    in the park, a box

    turtle pulls tightly

    into its mottled shell

    and waits for the dog,

    and me, to pass.

    (January 12, 2024)

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  • Impasse

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    broken, pessimism, poetry, relationships

    “words as residue”

    —Gustaf Sobin

    Sheared close 

    to the skin,

    we sit waiting 

    for something

    to be said.

    What remains

    after we speak

    are bludgeons

    of memory,

    a residual gist:

    if only words

    could be solid

    and crystalline.

    Instead, dust motes

    slip silently

    through morning 

    sunlight.

    (January 9, 2024)

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  • Continuity Requires Patience

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    abstract, metaphor, paradigms, patterns, poetry

    the darkness waits

    without waiting

    as easy as the sun

    over lake travis

    or whiskey over ice


    slowly over decades

    roses unfold

    then fall upon the floor

    the darkness shadows

    the light from the window


    patience is what is left

    a sheen of mist

    slicks the lily’s leaf

    as light absorbs the dark

    back into itself

    (January 4, 2024)

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  • The Mundane Patterns Along the Way

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    attention, awareness, change, cycle, haiku, patterns, poetry, sonnets, syllabics, tanka, time

    another day ends

    the night swallows the last light

    a new year begins


    the old clock rings out

    ten minutes behind the time

    the night knows no time


    fireworks break the light

    across the darkest of skies

    rain falls to the sea


    the morning is cold

    leaves have fallen from the trees

    for now the wind waits


    ring out bells ring in ring out

    ring in bells ring out ring in

    (January 1, 2024)

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