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My Poetry and Commentary on Life

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  • White Rabbit

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    dissatisfaction, fate, life, poetry
    It will take me
    away a way
    and just as long
    along this trail
    to finish and start
     as it would
    if I weren’t
    but I am
    so late lately
    I must madly
    leap and hop
    thought over thought
    step back
    a half
    step away
    to the left
    then again
    in quick
    succession
    of indecisive
    pirouettes
    a medley
    of mad
    attempts
    to fix
    the flux
    pulsing along
    my periphery
    like St. Elmo’s
    fire dancing
    around about
    the main masts’
    lines taut
    with the dainty
    gentility
    of high tea
    crumpets and scones
    displayed
    with such
    bourgeois glee
    as I descend
    again within
    the sidereal day
    knowing full well
    since the well
    is so full of air
    the seemingly
    unimportance
    of all
    the importance
    which clings
    to all
    I hear and say
    like cake
    crumbs
    tongued
    from chappy lips
    until all
    falls
    and’s
    said
    then done
    and  I drown
    in someone
    else’s tears

    (September 26, 2014)

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  • no ember no ash only flame

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    definition, identity formation, paradigms, poetry
    I read through poems I read
    and marked years ago searching
    for traces of who and what I
    was and I discover the same
    troubled man longing to still
    the raging thoughts burning
    like a defeated city in flames

    (September 24, 2014)

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  • Grip

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    happiness, identity formation, poetry
                “I hold a beast, and angel
    and a madman in me.”—Dylan Thomas
    you’re lost within
    such moments
    as today
    and there are
    such every day
    and as such
    are slippery
    as peeled mangos
    or fish
    or time
    or words
    so you hold
    tighter
    in fear
    or love
    or fear
    of love
    only to lose
    your grip
    on all
    about you
    who are you
    as well
    and you 
    are left
    with nothing
    left to hold
    and are lost
    without
    a within

    (September 23, 2014)

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  • Easier Said

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    definition, dissatisfaction, poetry
    Chop wood,
    carry water,
    everyday.
    Yes, but
    they hand you
    the bucket
    filled with water
    as the ax arcs
    toward the wood:
    you miss
    the wood;
    water soaks
    into the earth.

    (September 23, 2014)

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  • Viscous Thread

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    acceptance, definition, poetry, power
    A constant trickle of lost moments:
    ends and edges, border crossings;
    all metaphor’s lost as it is written.
    Doubt falls from devouring mouths
    only to serve recrimination’s echo.
    What can be said whose foil does not
    wait with snide repose for blood
    to present the unremarked thrust?
    It’s over. Each day remains a hollow shell
    even the scuttling hermit crab ignores.
    Beyond nostalgic brooding and regret,
    nothing’s to be done. Any agency
    collapses beneath the puppeteer’s hand
    as she lays the cut strings across the sand.

    (September 23, 2014)

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  • before the splash

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    clarity, dissatisfaction, fate, humility, life, poetry
    as the accustomed ache
    in his knees begins
    before he bends
    to pull with a slow
    wet smuck a weed
    from the mud and muck
    he sees in epiphany
    the whiteness of the weed’s
    tiny flowers glow
    a constellation
    beyond the damp moment’s
    indignations
    then recalls a poem’s
    translation where Li Po
    leans into the moon’s
    casual reflection
    along the still surface
    of a shallow pond
    and disappears
    into something other
    than who he was
    before he lost
    definition’s
    ephemeral
    control
    (September 20, 2014)

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  • Erato’s Gift

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    erato, eros, poetry, ritual
    I fill your absence
    with my desire
    your silence
    with the words
    I whisper here
    as if in a prayer
    you will hear
    then know
    I love you still

    (September 20, 2014)

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  • Work

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    fragments, poetry, traces, work
    another cup of dignity
    scooped from his soul
    and scattered about
    the floor like ash

    (September 20 2014)

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  • After Dust

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    acceptance, definition, dissatisfaction, fate, life, poetry
    I have fallen
    into my own
    irrelevancy,
    a hole
    so shallow
    as to not
    exist:
    no screams
    in anguish,
    no bitter
    moans,
    not even silence
    beyond a constant
    white noise
    without
    direction.

    (September 18, 2014)

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  • I know What Gregor Heard the Night Before

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    blame, definition, existential angst, fate, life, poetry, social construction

    He.
    He. Him.
    He says.
    He does.
    He mutters beneath his breath.
    He blows up.
    He’s a bully.
    He.
    He.
    He.
    (Why say a name?)He.
    He is an asshole.
    He.
    He is causality.
    (He is me).

    (September 18, 2014)

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  • time takes little steps

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    chance, fate, identity formation, life, poetry, process, sonnets
    a long chain of not doing not turning
    left but right a leaf on the wind distracts
    my attention however briefly and I
    miss the moment chance would
    have given if only I had noticed sooner
    then I would be looking at now as I am
    presently watching the possibilities of when
    I stepped toward a different bend
    because a flower bloomed on a bush
    opposite from my side of the street
    so I crossed like the chicken in the old
    joke but with less purpose than she
    who at least had a desire to be somewhere
    rather than suddenly finding herself here

    (September 16, 2014)

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  • Vision

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    attention, clarity, poetry, sonnets, ways of knowing
    I desire the owl’s focused clarity:
    to coalesce into all my shadows,
    bend between trees searching
    for slight differences in the dark.
    Instead the blur along my edges
    deepens towards me like gravity
    wells absorbing the surrounding light
    as if through repeated hard erasures.
    My dreams are sliced from beneath
    our words, smudged through blue
    arteries into my fat heart, until
    emptiness fades through like light.
    Dawn steals along night’s feathered
    horizon, slowly imagining the  day.
    (September 15, 2015)

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  • Last Minute With My Father, 1978

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    death, family, poetry
    it was a struggle
    each time before
    the bell rang and clanged
    in starts and stops
    repeatedly all morning
    I wanted calm if
    only for a moment
    the bell clanged and rang
    again and then not
    then again again
    like distant waves
    far out to sea
    the bell rang and clanged
    down the hall
    I heard his breathing
    in each gasp he strangled
    drawing in wet air
    the bell clanged and rang
    on the pillow beside him
    as he struggled to breathe
    I saw him and panicked
    each second slowed
    the bell rang and clanged
    he turned and he saw me
    then didn’t and was gone
    then silence grew
    about the room
    no bell no breath
    only a still silence
    within an absence
    (September 15, 2014)

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  • kaleidoscope

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    attention, fragments, poetry, ways of knowing
    I can’t, or won’t, maintain focus
    anymore. I’m listless.  A morning
    mist hangs in the dank summer air;
    the heat already pervades the deepest
    parts of shade like brown tarps draped
    over abandoned farm machinery.
    I drift along my mind’s flows;
    memory traces fall like leaves
    into a creek’s slow meander:
    scraps from forty, fifty, years ago
    blend with the poem I read last,
    or the latest gossip down the street;
    swirl in an eddy momentarily
    then diffuse along other patterns.
    (September 14, 2014)

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  • home rule

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    acceptance, life, poetry, silence, ways of knowing
    “Speak to me. Why do you never speak. Speak”
                –T.S.Eliot, The Wasteland
    but then
    submit
    domestically
    listen close
    closely close
    in silent
    silence
    listen
    to the uninterrupted
    stream’s detailed
    chit-chatter
    take note
    take note
    take note
    each nuanced
    rewritten
    repetition
    again and then
    again again
    without a word
    without a word
    without a word
    until erased
    smudged
    labeled
    gagged
    even here
    even here
    even here
    (September 13, 2014)

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